rachel_b90

Just wasting time

2008-04-22T03:28:44Z

Start time: 10:40 pm

BASICS:
full nαme: Rachel Anne Bowman
nicknαmes: bo-diddy, rach
sex: Female
birthdαy: october 15 1986
siblings: 1 brother, 1 sister, 1 step brother, 1 step sister
hαir colour: blondish brown
nαturαl hαir: brown
eye colour: blue/green
shoe size: 9
height: 5'7"

ATM:
whαt αre you weαring right now: black pj pants, black and white t-shirt
where do you live: Cobourg / Toronto
righty or lefty: Righty
cαn you mαke α dollαr chαnge right now: yeah, I have a jar full of change

RELATI0NSHIPS:
who αre your closest friends: Diana/Jackie/Sondra/Krista/Katie/Meagan
do you have a bf or gf? no
best plαce to go for α dαte: if it's a first date, coffee
fαvourite romαntic memory: shopping with a guy. It was just so relaxed and fun to have a first date of shopping and coffee

FASHI0N STUFF:
where is your fαvourite plαce to shop: Urban Outfitters, H&M and Forever 21 basically control my wardrobe
do you hαve αny tαttoos or piercings: Ears, that's it.

FAV0RITES:
colour: Purple
number: 8
food: bread
boys nαme: Logan, Peyton
girls nαme: Leila, Annabelle, Grace
subject in school: English
αnimαl: otters
drink: milk
Girl celebrity: Anne Hathaway
Boy Celebrity: Jeffrey Dean Morgan, George Clooney... hot.
sport: football
veggie: Mushrooms and green onion
fruit: plums
plαce to visit: I want to see big cities- london, New York, etc.
month: April
singer: John Mayer
perfume: Lovely- SJP
cologne: depends on the wearer.

HAVE Y0U EVER:
given αnyone α bαth: No
bungee jumped: god. no.
mαde yourself throw-up: no
went skinny dipping: No
been in the opposite sex's wαshroom: Yep
eαten α dog biscuit: eww, no
put your tongue on α frozen pole: No, never sounded like a good plan
broken a bone- No
plαyed truth or dαre: Yeah, classic.
rode in α police cαr: No, but if not in trouble that'd be fun
been on α plαne: Yes
come close to dying: no, thankfully
been in α sαunα: Yeah at Ste. Anne's
been in α hot tub: Yep
swαm in the oceαn: YES and I didn't like it, salt water and jelly fish= no good. I'll take a lake any time.
fαllen αsleep in school: no, can't sleep in front of people
kissed- yes
broken someone's heαrt: no
cried when someone died: Yep
wαnted someone: Yes
cried in school: no
sαved αn MSN conversαtion: yeah, if it is really important
sαved e-mαils: Indeed
wished you were someone else: Sometimes, for moments
wished you were α member of the opposite sex: sometimes, but then I think about the shrinkage episode of Seinfeld and realize they put up with alot.
fαllen for your guy best friend: no
mαde out with JUST α friend: no
been rejected: Yep...
been in love: Yes
been cheαted on: no
done something you regret: Yes, of course

WHAT IS:
your good luck chαrm: I don't really have one
best song you ever heαrd: rachel's song- soul coughing. hahah, not really, it's just the funniest song I can think of, and it has such a stellar title.

stupidest thing you hαve ever done: oh god, how much time do you have?
whαts your room like: right now? full of "lost" episode greatness
your most prized possesion: My laptop
lαst thing you sαid: "atleast it has trees and not some baby wrapped in a blanket." Said to Steve.
whαt is beside you: my desk... haha
fαvourite song: Perisher- Pills
something thαt hαs hαppened to you this yeαr: found out I need to do another semester at school
the worst thing thαt hαs hαppened to you this yeαr: had to write 3 essays and 3 exams in 1 week, haha

HAVE Y0U EVER HAD:
chicken pox: Yes
sore throαt: Yes
cold: Yep
stiches: yes, 4
bloody nose: Yes
surgery: no
broken bone: No

DO YOU:
believe in love αt first sight: maybe. My verdict is still out on that one.
like picnics: who doesn't
like school: I really do, despite my complaints.
whαt schools hαve you gone to: Burnham, Terry Fox, CDCI West, Ryerson
hαte αnyone: no

W0ULD Y0U:
eαt α live hαmster for $1,000,000,000,000?: can it be cooked first? Because then maybe. I hate to say that, but... come on!
go to α hαnson concert if you hαd free tickets: with the exception of any metal, screamo or trance crap I'd go to ANY concert if I had free tickets, haha.
kill someone you didn't know for 15 billion dollαrs: No
if you were stuck on αn islαnd whαt person would you wαnt with you: Survivor Man.
if you loved someone αnd you were keeping something from them αnd it would hurt them if they found out, would you tell them: No, more often than not people only admit those things for their personal absolution. Rarely is it actually because it's right to tell the person. I wouldn't tell them.

WH0:

who is the lαst person thαt cαlled you: Diana
who wαs the lαst person you slow dαnced with: wow, really really no clue, haha.
mαkes you lαugh the most: sarcastic people
mαkes you smile: friends
who cαn mαke you feel better no mαtter whαt: my sister
who do you hαve α crush on: someone unavailable
who hαs α crush on you: no one i know of
who wαs the lαst person you touched: I hugged my mom
you kissed: no one recently
yelled αt: My Mom, haha, poor mothers
who broke your heαrt: it's still intact
who told you they loved you: family

D0 Y0U/ARE Y0U:

do you weαr contαcts or glαsses: No
do you like yourself: Yes
do you get αlong with your fαmily: I Do, mostly
do you hαve piercings below the wαist: No
hαblα espanol: haha, no comprende por pavour
obsessive: on random things
compulsive: Yes, again, on random things
eαt to much: definitely sometimes
depressed: Sometimes
suicidαl: god no

FINAL QUESTI0NS:
how mαny people αre you sending this to: no one
whαt αre you listening to right now: the episode of "Lost"
how mαny buddies on your list: enough
whαt do you like to do: Sleep, it's amazing. haha.
whαt did you do yesterday: studied, went shopping, studied.
cαreer: lord knows...
got αny αwαrds: a few
whαt αre you most scαred of: being unemployed forever, haa
whαt cαr do you wish to hαve: a VW Jetta. haha I'm a dork but they're cute and I don't need a big car.
where do you wαnt to get mαrried: Cobourg. It's home, my family is there
if you could chαnge αnything αbout yourself, whαt would you chαnge: percentage of body fat, haha
whαt wαs your first cαr: Never had a "first car"
vegetariαn: no
good driver: I'm really no good, haha
good αctress/αctor: I can cry on cue if required, haha. that's about all my talents.
good dαncer: hahah, I can keep a beat, but the more drunk I get the less impressive it is I'm sure
good storyteller: sort of
hαve α lαvα lαmp: once
how mαny remote comtrols αre in your house: 2
you double jointed: No
lαst time you took α bαth: I dont have a bath here
the lαst movie you sαw αt the the theαters: Stop Loss

EITHER 0R:
night or dαy: night, I'm more productive
sun or rαin: rain
scαry or hαppy movies: Happy
chocolαte or white milk: soy chocolate milk.
root beer or Dr.pepper: Neither
better αt tαlking or listening: talking
skiing or boαrding: boarding I guess
summer or winter: summer
cαke or pie: cake
silver or gold: silver
diαmond or peαrl: diamond
sunset or sunrise: Sunrise.
coke or pepsi: coke.
sprite or 7up: Sprite
pαnts or skirts: Skirts
cαts or dogs: dogs
coffee or teα: coffee
phone or in person: In person
oldest, middle, youngest or only child: youngest

FILL 0UT (F0R GIRLS 0NLY):
boxers or briefs: boxers
older, younger, sαme αge: bit older
tαll or short: taller
good or bαd guy: good guy
eαr peirced or not : Not
stubble or neαtly shαved: Stubble
dαrk or blonde hαir: dark hair
curly or strαight hαir: curly
dαrk or light eyes: light eyes
whαt do you notice first αbout guys: Humour, smile
shy or outgoing: Outgoing
indoor or outdoor: Indoor
jewelery or flowers: Flowers
whαt do you like the most in α guy: a few things.

EXTRA:
whαt colour do you wαnt your hαir: blonde
whαt colour do you wαnt your eyes: Same
whαt kindα pet do you wαnt: dog
whαt school do you wαnt to go to: U of Kings or UBC
whαt αnimαl would you wαnt to be: not sure, haha
If you could makeout with one Celeb who would It be: not sure.

End time: 11:30 pm

Forgive me, everything is funny at this time of day

2008-04-21T09:23:42Z

A Professor writes a poem about his student:

You turned in a paper
so clearly plagiarized
that it made my eyebrows curl.

I tried Turnitin.com -- no luck.
I tried Google -- nothing.
I floated it to the faculty list

I spent two hours on it,
trying to track down references,
time I could have spent with real students.

You included no works cited,
although you cited in-text.
Then you turn in new names whose articles you could find.

The guilty flee, I suppose.
The time I will spend working on busting your ass
exceeds the time most people took to write the paper.

In that time, I could have had conferences with half the class,
written six to ten pages of my novel,
or had sex twice (four times, if they were quickies).

5 a.m. Dorito breath.

2008-04-21T09:02:46Z

Being a student is an abusive relationship. You pay someone more money than you really have, and for what? To be sitting up at 5 am writing a paper on chinese astronomy, dressed for the day already because you have to get going at 7 am? haha. It just seems wrong. Look me in the face and tell me I'll ever need to know about Chinese astronomy again... I doubt it's possible.

haha. 3 days. It's all good really, just wanted to rant a little. I really don't mind being a student, I think all night essay writing is somehow an essential part of your 20's.

Found this quote, which is entirely unrelated to this post, but I enjoy, and it is too long to post anywhere else, haha:

Find good guys. Don't find guys who have a stack of mags on top of their toilet, and watch Spike TV....If your boyfriend watches more than, like, 20 minutes of cop car chases, cut it out. And let me tell you one other secret, ladies. If he is wearing a hat, like, a baseball cap, that baseball cap must be perfectly straight on his head. If that hat is even just one degree off this way or that way, it's actually relative to how much of a dick he is. So if he's totally that way, that's how much of a dick he is. And if his hat is all the way sideways, ruuuuuun! Stay in line with the hat. And if it's on backwards, he may want to arm wrestle.

The Best Alternatives

2008-04-11T20:43:36Z

I was handed a business card today on the street. Usually I would just discard it and not think about it again, but this one has consumed my mind. I just keep reading it. Here's what it says:

"Purepillz: Distributor of only the highest quality alternatives

PEAQ Like a Rockstar!
FREQ Like a Pornstar!
TWEQ Your Mood.... And your recreation with our cutting edge formulas that will keep you going hard all night.
Like nothing else on the market...
The best alternatives to anything off the market.
If you use recreational drugs..
you owe it to yourself and your health to take a peaq at our products and make the switch.

Pure Principles
Pure Products
Pure Pillz"

I.... I just.... hmmm. I'm very rarely surprised by things in Toronto, as I fancy myself immune, but this caught me off guard. Maybe it was the discussion of pornstars, haha, I don't know. But I definitely stopped on the street to read it, and laugh.

Unapologetically taking over the world with surveys

2008-04-09T06:04:43Z

Whatever, I'm sick of school, let's waste some time:

1. Alright, so have you ever actually sat down and thought about why you like the person you like?
no, I just know I like them. That's all I need to know.

2. When people say, "Honestly, I don't think I've ever talked shit about anyone" do you think its possible? no, but not many people attempt to say that, haha.

3. How do you feel about gay marriage?
Do it. Then adopt a kid and raise them so there will be one less person in the world who questions the idea of gay marriage. Seriously, I'm so on board with gay marriage. I think anyone who actually wants to attempt to be married should be allowed.

4. Is there someone you'd really like to hang out with and just talk about stuff?
Honestly, and this may be the obscene amount of CBC I have been watching, but I want to get Jian Ghomeshi and George Stroumboulopoulos in a room and talk music

5. Is there something that has happened in your past that you really hate talking about?
not really, I'm emotionally stunted, so I'll answer any personal question with general disregard for their significance.

6. Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you?
I think I'm generally liked.... I think

7. Give me a random lyric from the song you're listening to:
"find a way to smile and never let it get away"

8. Do you think you're approachable?
people ask me directions on the street, so I think so. haha.

10. Do you regret doing anything this week?
no, but it's only Tuesday

11. Name something you wouldn't want to buy that's been used.
underwear

12. When did you last cry?
when my dog died

13. How late did you stay up last nite?
2 am like always, I'm on the most messed up sleep schedule

14. Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
Yes

15. What do you think of the most when you are alone?
stupid stuff like clothes and music, then stuff like dream jobs

16. Suppose you see your crush kissing someone else? I expect to see my crush kissing someone else considering his relationship status, haha

17. What would you do if a teacher of the opposite sex hit on you? depends which, I have a few cute ones, haha

18. Would you ever become a vegetarian or even vegan? I wouldn't be a vegan, because that's insanity and I love milk, but other than chicken I don't eat meat anyways, so I don't think being a vegetarian would be hard for me

19. Do you like your school?
i'm kind of over the idea of it right now

20. What do you think of people who hate vegetarians?
damn, did a vegetarian make this survey or something? Whatever, I think people who hate vegetarians should get a hobby

21. Are you a flirt?
I'm a 2 year old as a flirt. AWFUL.

22.Would you rather have jet black hair or cherry red hair?
Cherry Red

23. Do you make sexual innuendos about everything?
No. It'd be weird coming from me

25. What song are you listening to?
"Don't know why and Your body is a wonderland" by Norah Jones and John Mayer at the Big in 2002 award... I just downloaded it, so this is a first listen. 6 years late.

26. Have you ever held hands?
Yes

27.When was the last time that you went swimming, where and with who?
woah, umm, I'm going to assume at Katies, I'll say August some time.

28. If you need a new pair of jeans, what store do you go to first?
old navy, because I think all jeans look relatively the same so I dont want to spend 100 dollars on them

30. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
depends who with

32. Did you ever lose a best friend?
sort of... is that an answer? haha

33. Have you ever gotten mad because somebody said they'd call you and they didn't?
not that I remember, couldn't have been too heartbroken

34. Have you ever met a real life prostitute?
yes, not had a conversation or anything though, haha

35. Have you ever kissed in the rain.
no

36.Can you do push-ups?
haha, like 2 of them
38.Do you have a car?
not my own

40. Are you single?
yes

41. What's your favourite animal?
otters

42. What's on your mind?
that i should really write this assignment and get some sleep

43. Favourite football team?
Colts! Love my Peyton Manning (haha, that moment suggests I watch football; I only watch once a year, but I always want Peyton to be there)

44. Who is the last person you texted?
John

45. What colour are your eyes?
Blue/green

46. Where is your phone?
on top of a vogue magazine pile, haha

47. What is your 15th message in your inbox & who is it from?
hold on... Meagan and she wrote "Guess where I am? The library! I wish school was done."

48. What were you thinking about when you fell asleep last night?
my "what i want to get done tomorrow" list

49. What are you excited for?
summer

50. What are you doing for spring break?
umm, I might go on a trip next one

51. Whats your biggest fear?
This is going to sound weird.... but, dying from a brain aneurysm.. It's how i think I'll die, therefor, I fear it

52. Does your family get family portraits done?
not since I was like 9

53. What did you do today?
umm, got groceries, made a kick ass salad, met up with diana, shopped, went to the movies... chill day when I should have been doing productive things

54. Are you mad at anyone?
No

55. Annoyed with anyone?
it'd be dull if I weren't

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1. Are you into anyone?
Yeah

2. Did you date anyone this past summer?
no

3. Who was the last friend in your house?
Dani

4. Have you ever had chicken pox?
Yeah, that sucked

5. How's your ex doing?
I'm sure he's fine, haha

6. Is there someone you want to fight?
not physically

7. What shirt were you wearing when your last kiss took place?
ummm, I think it was my pink shirt. The shirt is better than the kiss

8. Song playing right now? "Creep (Radiohead cover) by Damien Rice, which, by the way, you should download immediately if you haven't heard it

9. What are you doing tonight?
it's 10 to 2 so I'm going to guess nothing else but sleeping

10. Does anyone like you?
I don't know

11. What's annoying you right now?
the repeat of questions

12. What are you thinking about right now?
I'm wondering who writes quizzes? Is this a job? If so.... wow

13. What's your middle name?
Anne

14. What were you doing an hour ago?
watching Arrested Development; the one with Dr. Feunke's 100 percent natural good time family band solution

16. Are you tired?
I should be

17. Who did you hang out with today?
the roommates (Sondra, Steve, Drew, Jackie), Dani, Diana
18. What does your last text message in your inbox say?
it was my 15th text (see earlier)

19. What colour is the shirt you are wearing?
black

24. Where were you last friday night?
here, it was a quiet weekend, haha

25. Where were you at noon yesterday?
good lord, this is testing my memory... I think I was sleeping after I got back from class

26. Are you married?
good lord no, I doubt I will. I think I'll live with a dude and our child will be a dog.

31. Do you wish at 11:11?
do people do that? I've NEVER heard of that

33. Next vacation you're going on?
october- somewhere warm

34. Do you have any piercings? Where?
ears

36. Who did you last hug who wasn't in your family?
diana

37. What's something you really want right now, be honest?
a hair cut

41. Do you love anyone?
yes

44. What do you hear?
Hem

45. Do you find yourself loved?
yes

46. Whats the weather like?
night-like

47. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
I don't know, I always think camping is an expression of lunacy. I mean, don't get me wrong, I like camping, but you're paying money to sleep on top of a piece of fabric in the middle of the woods.

48. What's the closest blue object to you?
the design on my duvet cover
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49. What is your natural hair color?
lord knows... actually, I think even he's given up hope of knowing.

I just like these, it wastes time and I get to listen to my music, haha

2008-04-08T00:30:38Z

Set your iTunes to shuffle. Hit a new song for each question.

.

About Me

Your name is... sober (kelly clarkson)

Your goal in life is... how lucky we are (meiko)- "one day, we'll get out of this shitty apartment, one day is all it takes for things to turn around."

Your greatest accomplishment... Carolyna (Mel C (kinda embarrassing for me, haha)

Your greatest mistake... Competition (Dragonette)

The best thing about you is... I remember (Damien Rice)

How do you feel right now? With a little help from my friends (across the Universe soundtrack)

How will you die? In repair (John Mayer)

The world is... right back where we started (Maxine Nightingale)

You are most proud of... Rocky took a lover (Bell X1)

Ultimate piss-off: After an afternoon (Jason Mraz)

What makes you happy? Beautiful madness (Bell X1)

What makes you sad? Soon we'll be found (Sia)

Your outlook on life is... Hands Down (Dashboard)

Friends

How would you describe your friends? Dusk and Summer (Dashboard)

How would they describe you? Delicate- Damien Rice

Your best friend is... Best laid plans (We the living)

Sex, Love and Relationships

Your crush/boyfriend/girlfriend is... Cold water (Damien Rice)

(S)he treats you like... the night the lights went out in Georgia- Reba McIntyre

When the two of you are alone, you like to do... anyone else but you (Michael Cera and Ellen Page)

Your first kiss was... puppet on a string (The Hives)

Life in General

What are most days like? Did I fool ya? (Jason Mraz)

Do you enjoy life? El Scorcho (dashboard) (damn, I'm all about dashboard tonight)

What is your life theme song? rebellion (lies) (Arcade Fire)

The Soundtrack to Your Life

Opening credits: Unfold (Jason Mraz)

Waking up: let it die (fiest)

Breakfast table: Pills (The Perishers) (Damn, my morning is going pretty depressingly)

Average day: Say (John Mayer)

First date: Let myself fall (Rosie Thomas)

First kiss: Don't waste your time (Kelly Clarkson)

Falling in love: Best Days (Graham Colton)

Love scene: Beautiful calm driving (Sia)

Break up: Death by Chocolate (Sia) (hahaha)

Loneliness: Penny on the train track (Ben Kweller)

Breakdown: Young Leaves (Attack in Black)

Flashback: you and I both (Jason Mraz).

Death: All I ever wanted (Brian Melo) (awww, thats nice)

Funeral: Don't mistake me (Keisha White)

End Credits: A beautiful mess (Jason mraz)

The most non-political political discussion ever had

2008-03-28T15:45:24Z

Just one more thing today, I swear.

Over Easter, 3 of my cousins were sitting around talking, and the American election came up. Here's how it went:

"So it's a woman and a black man, right?"- Cousin 1
"yeah, Clinton and Obama"- Cousin 2
"That's a big deal for America"- Cousin 3
"Yeah, they're pretty much the same though, right?"- Cousin 1
"They have different health care policies and stuff like that, but generally are the same, yes"- me
"They're the Republican candidates"- Cousin 2
"Yeah"- Cousin 1
"Yeah"- Cousin 3
"Wait wait, god no, they're Democratic"- me
"Oh, who's the Republican person then?"- Cousin 1
"John McCain"- Me
"Oh, I want him then"- Cousin 1
"yeah"- Cousin 2
"yeah"- Cousin 3

my heart hurts.

dress sharing with Hannah Montana

2008-03-28T14:05:33Z

I have 2 graduations to go to at the beginning of this summer, so I thought, I need a dress.

Well, I was out with a friend a few weeks back, found a dress I love (a bit more expensive than I wanted, but I loved), so I bought it.

Just under a week later, I'm on perezhilton.com and see this:

Miley Cyrus stole my dress! Here it is on the store website model:

Damn Miley beat me to the punch and wore it months before I planned too. Not my fault I live in Canada, haha. I can't be out wearing dresses yet.

Anyways, I thought it was pretty funny. Good taste, Miley.

rachel_b90 @ 2008-03-28T09:28:00

2008-03-28T14:00:10Z

1. What is your favorite thing about spring?
rain. I love rain. I love umbrellas, and the smell of wet pavement, and birds. Rain is excellent.

2. What is your favorite thing about Summer?
would it be wrong to say air conditioning? Yes? Ok then, ummm, outdoor festivals

3. What is your favorite thing about Fall?
everything looks pretty

4. What is your favorite thing about Winter?
first snow

5. How do you feel about racism?
I agree with Hayley as much as I always used to think it was a pretty simple thing, but there are SO many forms of it. Coming from my middle class suburban white experience I still don't think I have a full grasp on how pervasive it is, but I'm trying.

6. How do you feel about global warming?
I'm worried about it, and worried for those who don't think it is happening. However, I think my ecological footprint is a tiny as 1 person can make short or living in the woods, so that makes me feel better.

7. How do you feel about recycling?
we're all about it in my apartment. We do weekly runs down to the recycling bins with our stuff

8. Can you cook?
god. no

9. Do you own a bible?
yeah, I got one when I was like 8, it's around somewhere, haha

10. What are the best things in life?
happiness family friends money (I hate to involve money, but if you have it you have time to be happy, if you don't you're too stressed out.)

11. Look outside, how's the weather?
Kinda dreary but no rain or snow or anything

12. what kind of vehicle do you drive?
2 feet, haha.

13. What is your least favorite thing to do?
do homework

14. do you grow your own vegetables?
No, but they'd die if I tried

15. Name something great that happened today?
I've only been up half an hour, so short of going to the bathroom I have done literally nothing

16. One place you would love to visit?
England, New York City, Rome, Greece. Where WOULDN'T I like to visit, haha.

17. what is your favorite holiday?
christmas

18. what is you favorite color?
purple

19. who is your best friend and why?
Krista, because we met when we were 3 and lived close to each other, and when you're that young that's all the reason you need, haha.

20. what two characterisitics best describe you?
giggly and loud

21. finish this sentance: "Children need...."
hope

22. Have you been happy recently?.
yes

23. do you like getting flowers?
I think they're pretty and I say awww like a girl should, but fresh cut ones die, and that's slightly depressing to watch, and lets face it, plants die on me too, so I can think of better presents

24. who do you shop for most?
me!

25. What are you currently listening to?
a truck backing up. I couldn't be bothered to turn on music

26. who do you miss the most?
I've seen most people relatively recently

27. what is something you think everyone should try once?
karaoke
29. do you own a bicycle?
yes, and I know this because last summer me and my sister came up with the horrible plan to ride our bikes as a workout. You know, enjoy the nice weather and get in shape. GOOD LORD ARE BIKES HARDER TO RIDE THAN I REMEMBER. DAMN. It just reminded us we were out of shape more than it was fun like I remember it used to be.

30. Is lying ever acceptable?
oooh yeah.

31. What was the last movie you watched?
Drillbit Taylor. I love Owen Wilson, and more than that I LOVE Judd Apatow, the director, but, it's not a good movie.

32. Name someone who has turned your life around?
wow. Should I cry now that I can't think of anyone? That's depressing, yes?

34. what is your favorite TV show?
i don't have cable, but I actively search out methods to watch "Grey's Anatomy" and, don't judge me, "The Hills." So, they must be my favorites, haha.

35. Who was the last person to give you a hug?
Sondra

36. Was today a good day?
again, been up half an hour. But I'm optimistic.

37. what is something you are excited for?
this semester to be done

38. Do you believe in God?
yes

39. What are you good at?
talking, being helpful (I always find it nice when asked for directions, because it reminds me I'm approachable, haha), writing (hopefully, because it will be needed in some form when I'm employed.)

40. What is your Zodiac sign?
Libra, and I have NO idea what it means to be one.

41. Do you like to sleep late?
whenever possible
I would die of old age now if it happened in my sleep.
mmm, sleep.
haha.

42. what is something that makes you sad?
stressing about things I can't control.

43. can you sing?
I sign all the time. Literally. People will say things to me, and I will more likely than not find a song line that applies, haha. I wont always sing it out loud, but I'll for sure be singing it in my head. This ailment is the worst around my sister.

45. what is the most important trait in a friend?
someone I can carry on a conversation with

46. Last person you saw?
Steve. We were having a 1 am talk in the kitchen last night

47. What do you say most when you're trying NOT to curse?
crap. I say crap alot. I don't actually swear. I don't have any moral issue with swearing, but it just doesn't sound right when I do it. You know that high pitched squeaky voice Conan O'Brien makes when he's making fun of himself for being nerdy? That's me when I try and swear.

48. what are you doing today?
class, essay, coffee, essay

49. What is your favorite store?
H&M for clothes, transit for shoes, Urban Outfitters for looking but not buying

50. Do you enjoy garage saling?
when I was little me, my mom and sister would go every weekend to a garage sales. It was fun, but I wouldn't personally go to them now. I know the crazy people that go and the not so awesome stuff they sell

need for change

2008-03-28T05:16:15Z

I've never felt unsettled before. I've always been one of those people that have been very content with where they were and how they live. I'm not so convinced right now.

So, I'm thinking about moving away. I think it's a pretty perfect time actually. I have to be back in Toronto in September, which means there is an end date on this moving, which is the only way I would (currently) move far. I'm also feeling slightly stir crazy, maybe from the 4 years at this 1 school, 3 years at this 1 apartment. I have no job I'm attached to, nobody that can't live without me for 4 months. I do have a butt that's only seen 1 plane and eyes that have only ever seen Ontario (mostly).

I cant move somewhere without getting a job in that place first. So that's the only hitch in this plan. I have picked the city though, and the furnished place to live in that city. I just need to find a job. I think this is an inspired plan.

Give me something to miss. I've never been away from my closest family for more than MAYBE a month, ever. Take me away for 4 months= lots of love and appreciation for where I come from and who I come from.

Also, I could skip out on experiencing any more of my mothers current mid-life crisis.
Works out!

More details as/if this plays out.

rachel_b90 @ 2008-03-19T23:13:00

2008-03-20T03:19:26Z

I think I'm bordering on being an insomniac.

I have accomplished nothing this week and yet, have not been able to get to bed before 3 am on any of those days.

Not even much yawning. And I'll lay there in the dark, and nothing. Not before 3 am.

I think I'm coming down with something. Some 3 am disease. I hear that's going around.

More inefficient waste of a week. I have 3 essays due next week. I should write one. I did not.

I did read "The Picture of Dorian Gray" in 1 sitting for an essay I'm writing about the truth in it.. but, that's it. And that's mostly only because I had to take the subway for the first time in an eternity a rather lengthy distance and I don't do that without being equipped with reading material.

I go home tomorrow for Easter. It's my goal to re-find some normal sleeping habit and bring it back with me to Toronto.

I am excited about Easter. it should be eventful. Also, those of you I know should come to Kelly's Saturday night. I could invite you on Facebook or something, but this is efficient, as I feel considering you also post things you will read things. haha.

rachel_b90 @ 2008-03-16T14:03:00

2008-03-16T18:04:02Z

I went to log on to livejournal today and it said I was logged in under "Jonesforbones". What the...

Still not too sure. haha

I love this

2008-03-16T18:02:40Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tyZcwnO794k

Just wasting time

2008-03-15T03:51:16Z

TEN WHATS:

1. What was the first thing you thought about when you woke up?
man I need to go to this class no matter how much I want to keep sleeping

2. What did you do last night?
went to school for a while, did no homework..

3. What is the most important part of your life right now?
convincing 5 English Professors, 1 History Professor and 1 Politics Professor that theirs is the class I have time to read for

4. What would you rather be doing right now?
I'm pretty set. I painted my nails for like... an hour. I'm now eating popcorn and thinking about an essay outline I want to show a Prof on Monday. It's boring, but there are worse things to be doing with my time

5. What did you last cry over?
I don't cry. I'm dead inside.

6. What always makes you feel better when you're upset?
spending money (always problematic), going for a walk

7. What are your plans tomorrow?
some homework (maybe), and st. patricks day stuff

8. What's the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
A sense of humour. (Other than the superficial answer of good teeth, hah)

9. What are you worried about?
how much time you got? I'm a wrinkled 21 year old

10. What are you looking forward to most in this week?
Friday- home for Easter weekend

NINE HAVE-YOU-EVERS:

1. Have you ever liked someone with a girlfriend/boyfriend?
who hasn't

2. Have you ever had your heart broken?
no

3. Have you ever played a sport on a team?
EVER? Yes. Since I reached 2 digits in age? No.

4.Have you ever been out of the country?
No, I'm lame

5. Have you ever had major/minor surgery?
no

6. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
literally? no. haha

7. Have you ever had the cops called on you?
At like a house party, yes. Oh, and when Katie had her car break down and we started using alcohol bottles to syphon gas into the car.. yeah, people didn't like that.

8. Have you ever dated someone younger then you?
no

9. Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
no, I have A.D.D.

EIGHT WHOS:

1. Who was the last person you saw?
Jackie, in the hall on the phone with her mom. I liked that she made her mom wait while she talked to me. haha.

2. Who was the last person you hugged?
Emily and or Smit

3. Who was the last person you called?
Emily

4. Who was the last person to call you?
Diana

5. Who was your first crush?
Ben Austin, grade 3 (?)

6. Who was the last person to message you online?
Kyle

7. Who is the last person you texted?
Diana.

8. Who did you last yell at?
umm, I'm not sure. No yelling, just harsh talking, haha

SEVEN WHENS:

1. When was your last shower?
2 hours ago

2. When did you last see your mom?
3 weeks ago

3. When was your last hug?
We've been over this.

5. When was the last time you cried?
we've been over this too.

6. When did you last go to the movie theatre?
Forever ago. While I was home for reading week I went and saw Vantage Point. It was a hot date with Meagan, haha.

7. When were you born?
October 15th.

SIX WHERES:

1. Where do your best friend(s) live?
St. Catharines/Ottawa/Peterborough/Toronto.

2. Where did you last go?
school

3. Where did you last hang out?
kitchen.

4. Where do you go to school?
Ryerson.

5. Where is your favorite place to be?
my room. it's comfy

6. Where did you sleep last night?
Under 2 comforters. It was lovely

FIVE DO/DOES:

1. Do you like someone right now?
yes, against all smart thinking

2. Do they like you too?
heck no, I don't think so atleast. That would be bad

3. Do you ever wish you were someone else?
Sure. who doesn't sometimes

4. Do you know the muffin man?
we're tight

5. Does the future scare you?
yes, heck yes.

FOUR WHYS:

1. Why are you best friends with your best friends?
Because they're stellar happy fun times.

2. Why did you get a Facebook?
Because it's addictive...

3. Why did your parents give you the name you have?
Because my mom was into a soap opera with a Rachel, and grew up in a religious family. haha

4. Why are you doing this survey?
Wasting time.

THREE IFS:

1. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
to wake up and be showered/dressed/put together instantly. haha. Save so much time.

2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
yes. haha.

3. If you were stranded on a desert island and could bring one thing what would you bring and why?
a phone

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVERS:

1. Would you ever be friends with someone again, who you promised yourself you never would be, because they were so mean to you?
no.

2. Would you ever shave your head to save the person you love?
If it were life or death, yes.

ONE LAST QUESTION:

1. Are you happy with your life right now?
I know nothing else. haha.

seen on the street

2008-03-14T20:47:14Z

I was walking down Church Street and saw a sign that read:

"Anal sex may prevent Cancer. It probably doesn't, but we just gave you an excuse to do it a couple times a week."

Just wanted to share the humour.

in lieu of studying

2008-03-03T11:57:24Z

I'm getting very into the Presidential race happening. Partially because it's good dramatic tv, but because it was so crazy hard to choose a favorite, and I don't remember ever thinking that before. haha. Last time, I definitely liked Kerry more. In 2000 I wanted Gore. This time though, I didn't even know who I wanted to be nominated to run for President- well, between Clinton and Obama of course. I mean, obviously I'm not team McCain. Anyways, after a day of CNN I decided on Obama, partially because I just like him more as a person, but also, and this is awful reasoning, but because I heard on CNN about a pole taken of independent voters. Basically if it were McCain vs. Clinton, independents would vote McCain but if it were McCain vs. Obama they'd vote Obama. This means McCain has a better shot against Clinton, and not to make Republican's sound like the anti-christ but I'm not willing to support anything or anyone who gives the Republican's a better shot at winning. Republican's even WANT Clinton to get the nomination so they can win. Anyways, I didn't come on to rant about politics, haha, I'm just listening to the "Yes we can" song and decided to reason my vote. You know, my ever so important not-able-to-vote-cuz-I'm-Canadian vote. haha.

"We've been warned against giving people of this nation false hope. But in the unlikely story that is America, there has never been anything false about Hope."

rachel_b90 @ 2008-03-03T00:01:00

2008-03-03T05:15:44Z

I've watched an astronomical amount of Sex and the City on dvd in the past 3 days. I mean, I threw in some other stuff too, like going outside, etc. but seriously, a ton of it. It's an excellent show, but it kept me from studying and made me want to spend money on things I can't afford. Seriously, I had a nap today because I woke up at 8 on a Sunday like a shmuck, and my nap... was about me ordering 2 pairs of Manolo Blahnik's online. Seriously. I can remember what they looked like, haha. And I had them to delivered to me while I was at dinner at Rachel Niles house, which would usually be weird, but she's asked me out to dinner so many times in the past week it's not that surprising. Damn, if I was going to have 2 pairs of 500 dollar shoes delivered to me I'd make time for that dinner. My shoes now look like shit. I did find out I have 22 pairs at school, which I think may be a touch crazy, but damn, they're all crap compared to the dream shoes. Damn Sex and the City makes my student life look crappy. haha. I better have that much disposable income when I'm 33. Anyways, I have a midterm tomorrow morning and I somehow put off studying for it til like 7:00 tonight. I was up at 8 and didn't study for another 11 hours... impressive. I did read the Spring vogue and the Globe and Mail, which takes atleast 2 hours.

Here's the thing about me and Vogue.. My mom told me there was this news report about how women who can't cook buy gourmet cooking magazines, and it's like women porn, because they know they'll never actually cook these things, but they love to look at them. This is what I do with fashion magazines. I know I am too poor, not a size 2, and half the stuff would look crazy on any human being, but I still want to look. I may not buy cooking magazines and fantasize being able to cook the pretty looking food, but I definitely fantasize a wardrobe and wearing the pretty looking clothing. haha.

I'm so excited last week is over. I had 2 midterms, 3 essays and a short answer thing due. This coming week I have... a midterm. That's MUCH more manageable.

I keep procrastinating applying for jobs. I'm going to be unemployed and it'll suck. haha. I keep telling myself this but I keep not doing anything. I have a theory about me and my intense procrastination. I have no real drama, so I think I'm hardcore creating it for myself this year. I'm not consciously doing that, but I really do think that's what it must be. I mean, I had 3 days to study for this midterm, and I waited til... now. I wait til last minute to do pretty well everything, and I think it's 1 part laziness and 2 parts drama creation.

Anyways, must go back to studying. "Lives are like retractable pencils. If you push them too far they're going to break. And people are like paper dolls. Paper dolls and people, they're the very same shape." Haha, that's completely meaningless, but that's what was playing in my ear as I finished this post. haha, oh Flight of the Conchords.

Oh, my f*ing Ipod stopped working on me again yesterday. I swear to god, if i wasn't an IPod dependent I'd throw it off a bridge.

In reference to

2008-02-13T04:26:32Z

I just realized, while looking back on past posts, that I made a post on December... 12th I think, saying I was going to watch "License to Wed" and would come back with a review. I never did. So, 2 months later here it is- it's not very good. Seriously, don't rent it... I know there probably wasn't anyone waiting by for 2 months to here what I had to say about it, but I thought I should bring a conclusion to the December post. haha. So yeah, love John still, but movie was no good.

Here's to being here

2008-02-13T04:14:53Z

It's been a very long time since I've genuinely written something here. There have been plenty of 2 am quizzes and spouted song lyrics, but no actual updates of real posts. Let's fix that:

So, I don't want to sound all typical student, but I'm counting down the days until reading week, which, by the way, happens beginning Friday night. Until then I'm filling my time with class, homework, and currently, "between the beautifuls" by Hawksley Workman. Seriously, if you don't know him.... go. now. buy. love. I've seen him in concert once, saw him at the filming of MTV Live last Wednesday. I don't even watch that crap, but I showed up and brought Diana (who doesn't know Hawksley), just to see him play 3 songs (totally worth all the mindless cheering required with the filming of a tv show, and which we were forced to do.) I bought the cd today, and I'm having a religious experience right now. haha. I'm on "Pomegranate Daffodil" and am being chanted at to "don't fuck around anymore", and I really don't want to fuck around anymore. haha. I'm not even doing anything, but I want to be better. haha. Ok, that's all I'll say about that.

School is good. I hate to say I'm over it because I'm not really. I mean, I want it to be done, but know when it is and I have no school to return to in the fall I'll feel empty, hopeless and want to go back. So I'm trying to recognize my love of the school experience before it's gone. It's an attempt to fight the "by the time I recognize this moment, this moment will be gone" issue. I don't know if it's really possible to recognize how much I'll miss it when it's gone, but I'm trying to actively recognize it. Fighting the urge to be sick of it.

I decided not to apply to any grad school. This was the result of a lack of money, which directly correlates to my inability to shell out $75 a pop to send in an application. Also, I didn't apply out of simple lack of preparedness. I didn't have reference letters from Profs, and I didn't think I could get them in the time I left for myself. I think I may collect some by the end of this year just incase I decide in a year that I need school in my life to function. haha. I'll leave the option open for myself.

I am applying to some interesting jobs. Or, hopefully interesting. Copy editing, publishing companies, magazines, artistic community outreach programs, etc.

I'm in a weird limbo right now that is awkward. I am telling family (other than my mom) that I am still applying for grad school, because I don't want them to ask what I'm doing next, not have an answer for them, and be given the eye of pity, shame and awkward silence. The truth is I never knew specifically what I wanted to do with my life, but I never wanted to say it, and I guess I always hoped saying I was taking Arts and Contemporary Studies would make people just understand my lack of future plans. It did not, and now I'm getting questions.

I've decided with the end of University comes the need for a road trip or trip in general. I'm kinda loving the idea of a road trip complete with a Bob Dylan cd mix. haha. I think this has to be the summer for a trip. It's just what is required at this junction.

I went home and the big tree from our front yard was gone. Sadness. I mean, I knew it was coming. It was marked with a bullseye waiting for its impending death, but still, it's gone now. It was hollow and ancient, but it was pretty, and ancient. I think the ancient part works both to why it should go and why it should stay.

I bought a hat today for 5 dollars. Things like that make me endlessly and oddly happy.

That's it.... If you made it through you are both impressive and in need of something more effective to do with your time.

I have to go write a reaction paper now. As in avoidance of this assignment as I am, you should all read the book I have to write it about- "Snow" by Orhan Pamuk. Excellent.

"Rusty on the outside, shabby on the inside, Angels keep lighting my way."

I'm in my Politics class, I'm an hour in, and I've written nothing. Quiz time:

2008-02-11T14:24:12Z

SCATTERGORIES...it's harder than it looks!
*Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following. *they have to be real places, names, things...nothing made up! Try to use different answers if the person in front of you had the same 1st initial. (WHICH BY THE WAY IS HARD IF YOU ALREADY READ THEIR ANSWERS) You CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl

1. What is your name? Rachel
2. 4 letter word: Rich
3. Vehicle: Rolls Royce
4. City: Richmond, VA.
5. Boy Name: Ronald
6. Girl Name: Rebecca
7. Non-Alcoholic drink: raspberry juice (?)
8. Occupation: Rabbi
9. Something you wear: rings
10. Celebrity: Racheal Ray
11. Food: Ring Ding
12. Something found in a bathroom: razor (man, that took thinking)
13. Reason for being late: running late (haha, see how I cheated there)
14. Cartoon Character: Ronald mcDonald (does he count as a cartoon?)
15. Something you shout: "Right on!" haha, ok,never shouted that, but I suppose you could.
16. Animal: Rabbit
17. Body Part: Risorious muscle. (That's right, googled. haha)
18. Word to describe you: Ravishing

Damn, that was hard!

thoughts concerning voting.

2008-02-03T23:35:05Z

I've decided that if the United States wants to get voter turnout higher, they should make everyone vote before they can purchase a ticket to the Superbowl. Or, at the very least, force them to be registered. haha.

Rachel looks like a fluffy pink cupcake.

2008-02-03T08:27:18Z

Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search:

1. Rachel needs to have blush that is very bright and colorful.
2. Rachel needs some good thoughts
3. Rachel needs guidance and normal supervision

Type in "[your name] looks" in the Google search:

1. Rachel looks at the door.
2. Rachel looks like a fluffy pink cupcake.
3. Rachel looks at a distant peg.

Type in "[your name] is" in the Google search:

1. Rachel is a real girl.
2. Rachel is developing two different accessory lines.
3. Rachel is living with her semi-invalid mother in a suite of rooms

Type in "[your name] likes" in the Google search:

1. Rachel likes to go on walks and look for birds, deer, and other animals in the forest
2. Rachel likes Rabbit Food.
3. Rachel likes to play around with her look...her hair goes from blonde, to brown...to red...so mix and match!

Type in "[your name] wants" in the Google search:

1. Rachel wants to recreate both the language and the legend
2. Rachel wants a ride that'll make heads turn .
3. Rachel wants a latin dancer.

Type in "[your name] says" in the Google search:

1. Rachel says her sex-therapist mother "knew the day after I lost my virginity"
2. Rachel says "you're all fucking with my head."
3. Rachel says that "when he was unemployed, he would lay in bed all day."

Random nothing post.

2008-01-25T17:08:01Z

I'm watching the CBC news, and they're talking about how despite the presence of 6 police officers, a man was tasered to be stopped from dangerously walking in the streets last night. Fine, do what you need to do, but then the Reporter said this, "the person is facing charges after punching a female officer repeatedly." NOW, obviously punching a police officer= not good. But why is the use of the word "female" necessary? If someone punched a male officer would the reporter say "a male officer"? I doubt it. And I'm not saying the man shouldn't be charged for what he did, or that they shouldn't have used the taser, but I'm wondering if using the "he was punching a female" line is being used to muster some support for the tasering more than just being reporting of information. I'm not some feminist or anything, because I grew up in a time when being a feminist is pretty well impossible, but I'm just saying, use of "female" in this case seems sketchy.

A little love and understanding through the words of Alastair McIntosh

2008-01-18T03:09:44Z

So there's this song. It's called "Homage to Young Men" by Nizlopi and Alastair McIntosh. I love the lyrics/talking verses, so I'm posting them, because I both love Nizlopi, and I think the word fuckedupness is humorous. I know it's been an eternity since I've posted anything on here and I promise I will soon, but 'til then, here's Alastair:

I want to talk to the young men out there. It’s for the women too, but especially the men, cos it’s tough to be a young man in this world. You have to face so much heartbreak and loss. In love and career and life. It’s easy to forget the meaning and give up. To burn up or sell out to addictions, despair or greed. Easy to forget that life’s a journey with a beginning, a middle and an end. It’s about navigating the future, your future. It’s about learning to become a man who’s real, and able to love.

So let’s talk about the first stage of life. The departure, when your boat is pushed out on the river. Most of who you are is still your small self. The you your family has made you, your schooling and your friends. You’ve still not found your deep self, your Great Self, cos that’s what the journey’s for. So you set out, full of hope, but with a heavy load. All the baggage of your upbringing. All the love, yes, but the fuckedupness too. Maybe the absent father, or the smothering mother, or the cold indifference of those around you. It’s no wonder you’ve a rough ride coming. It’s gonna get tough and it’s got to. So you can find yourself. So you can become a real man.

And that’s when you hit the second stage of life. The initiation in the rapids and the storms. That’s when you find the pain of brokenheartedness. Love affairs that fail, failures in career and all your hopes for what the world might have been. Plenty young men founder grazed on such jagged rocks as these. Bruised and angry in a storm of violence towards self and others. But it doesn’t have to stay like that. No, my friends, not if you push on and open to the inner grace that will bring you courage. The courage to face reality as it is, without lies. The courage to know your wound but to insist on beauty and outgrow it. The courage to open your heart, to hold fast to truth, and to stand each step in your dignity.

And that’s the courage that brings your boat to the third stage of life. To see how your small self is held in a greater Self. And that you’re fit to be an elder in your community, able to share the gifts and the blessings. Able to support and inspire what gives life among your people. And to love your beloved; to love and be loved by the Beloved no less, my friends. Because we’re talking here of love in all its meanings. And you can only love with a deepening heart. And that is why you had to grow courage on this journey to the ocean. That’s what your battle wounds on the field of life were all about. That, my dear friends, is what qualifies you to be a man in your community. Capable of loving and able to be loved.

rachel_b90 @ 2007-12-12T16:38:00

2007-12-12T21:40:35Z

This post is about nothing except the fact that I just finished my 2nd last exam and have until Friday til my next exam, and as celebration rented "license to wed" (because of John, not Mandy, haha) and am eating a sub that cost me an arm and a leg (seriously Subway, ridiculous.) Anyways, will be back with a review (of the movie, not the food.)